How old will I be when I become a widow? What will I be to his family when he’s gone? For how long will I need to be ‘Caretaker’ in addition to the other things I am to this person: ‘Friend’, ‘Lover’, ‘Wife’, ‘Shower Towel Retriever’?Read More
I don’t know what I was expecting when I walked down the stairs to that basement recording studio in Halifax – but I certainly wasn’t expecting to be talking to a young man about why he shouldn’t want to die.Read More
But every moment not filled with mental illness' bullshit, I am loving. I love my partner, family, friends, and my dog. I love my job and future career as a nurse, continually helping those who experience mental illness.Read More
Officially my vocation is “adventurer and storm chaser” (at least that’s what’s on my business card). For the past 20 years or so, I’ve been travelling the world, documenting the most extreme places, and forces of nature. Basically if there’s some way that Mother Nature might be trying to kill you, I’m probably close by with a camera rolling.Read More
However, while tactical trainers have helped officers to develop the skills necessary to deal with violent confrontations, they have fallen short when it comes to training officers to cope with the emotional and physical sequelae that often follow a violent incident.Read More
“What? ‘What’s the happiest moment in your life?’ is a dumb ass question?” I asked incredulously. “You don’t think it’s important for someone to be self-aware enough to identify the happiest moment in their life? To prioritize knowing that ahead of how much money they make or what their grades are?”Read More
What comes to mind when you hear the word "Pedophile"? For me, it was words like "evil", "hurtful", "Deceitful". I use the word "was" because those are the words that I used to associate with the word "pedophile". But as it as with most things, we don't have all the facts when we make up our mind about how we feel.Read More
I just want to find someone that can make me laugh, give me orgasms, and talk about poop—the third point being key to my story.Read More
"Oh... Gord Downie has terminal brain cancer."
'Fuck..." That's all I can muster up. Fuck. My heart sank.
He will likely never know it, but in that moment I felt compelled to tell him...
Gord, you play a pivotal role in one of my most cherished childhood memories.Read More
I am alive.
If there is one thing life has taught me is that life in itself is more than enough. Everything else is just bonus. If I am alive what more can I ask for!?Read More
It's not every day that you get a chance to sit down with someone who has spent close to two hundred days outside of earth's atmosphere and orbited our planet just shy of 3000 times...BUT...sometimes, it is that day.Read More
The first time I learned about Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) was from an episode of Dr. Phil, when I was probably too young to watch Dr. Phil. I remember thinking how strange, and how scary it must be to have the mirror be your worst enemy.Read More
If you grant yourself the opportunity to witness it, there will always be another day, another sunrise, another moment of happiness and gratitude. Living with chronic depression and anxiety has clouded a large portion of my days with some very gloomy weather, but my strength comes from knowing that eventually, there will be sun.Read More
Some of the coolest things we share as human beings include consciousness, self awareness, and complex language. We are able to communicate ideas and form opinions. There are topics we become passionate about because we can relate or we see ourselves within them - but seriously - don't let me be passionate about my opinionsRead More
Medical confirmation wouldn’t come for almost twenty-fours hours, when I learned that as that pathetic scene played out at Fisher’s gravesite, hundreds of thousands of malaria parasites were bursting like an asteroid shower into my bloodstream and voraciously consuming my red blood cells. I had come to this isolated region of southern African to do research for a documentary about a deadly and ancient illness, but that illness had found me first, and I still had a four-kilometer trek back to the Kalene mission hospital.Read More
I’ve been living with Crohn’s disease for so long, and was diagnosed at such a young age that I don’t remember a time where I could walk into a public washroom, see all stalls in use, and not go into a minor panic attack worrying about it being the day where I instinctively “create” a new washroom in the garbage can...Read More
Glancing through the driver side window of my car I finally see it sitting there on the passenger seat. I hop in, grab it, “click-click” and inhale. The worst moment followed by an ecstasy of relief. Even hearing the sound of the clicking puffer before I inhale the drugs creates a sort of Pavlovian relief to the pain.Read More
...they would remove almost all of my thigh down to my knee, then rotating my lower leg 180 degrees and re attaching it making it so that my foot would now face backwards and be at equal level as my right knee, my ankle would then become my knee joint. After hearing this immediately I freaked the fuck out!Read More